.rejected.dejected.

not rejected by my 184cm classmate when i try to shoot the basketball.. it's it.. "eh francis.. look at tt chiobu!" nudged my classmate.. argh.. no mood la.. juz nodded my head.. "ok.." "oi so sian todae ar.. so quiet the whole dae.." haiii.. dunno wad to tell them.. juz a wry smile in reply.. played bball and cards during breaks and after sch wif classmates.. juz din enjoy myself like b4.. and it seems like sth missing on a fri nite w/o some of my sec sch buddies.. couldnt concentrate on watever i did todae.. be it listening to lects, going through tutorials or having 'fun'.. tried to get her out of my mind for a moment but i reallie cant.. during lessons.. on the way home.. kept looking back at the times we've been together.. the promises we've made to each other.. i dun exactly know wad led to this cruel outcome.. but i muz respect her decision.. it's like a dagger stabbed rite through my heart.. and perhaps if i knew the reason it'll be like twisting the dagger in my wound.. feel tt my heart was wrung.. acid devouring my internal organs.. sigh.. it hurts.. it reallie hurts.. mabbe i m too dumb.. mabbe i m not good-looking enuff.. mabbe i do not possess the qualities.. mabbe i m juz dont deserve her.. not a single msg since yesterdae.. ooh the emptiness inside of mi.. it was juz a dream.. i still miss her veri much.. dun think she misses mi though.. hai. engulfed by melancholy.. sincerest apologies to those i've been rather cold to todae.. nothing reallie can cheer mi up.. thx aniwae..