haiii.. feeling real troubled and frustrated.. first on it's the common tests preparation.. havent started doing anithing abt it.. oh man.. onli 1 week left.. kind of deja vu.. seems like the period of time b4 O lvls.. and hopefully not the same for the results.. then suddenly the topic of career and life after ns propped up in a conversation.. ahhhhhhh i haf no ambition.. no idea wad i wan to be in the future.. argh.. oso.. some things i realised abt frens.. some good and others not quite desirable.. hmmmmm practically wasted the first 2 weeks of my hols by playing a lot watching tv fooling around and spent quite a lot of time wif frens.. but why shldnt it be like tt?.. tot hols are supposed to be for us to catch a breath in the midst of busy term schedule.. but then again.. it is an appropriate time to catch up wif work.. arr wadever.. contradicting myself alreadi.. hardly had ani experience of taking quite major tests right after a period of holidays.. i m definitely not wif this order of tests and hols.. and the results of my common tests shld be able to prove it.. if holidae mood was a bottomless pit.. i would haf alreadi unknowingly slipped into it.. a week to revise for common tests.. is it enuff? hai.. quite guilty.. kept saeing tt i haf how much time left to study and needa start studying etc.. but in the end i slacked and slacked and slacked.. ahhhhhhhhh... worried.. oh and it seems to mi as if other pple haf alreadi covered a substantial amt of work.. argh.. sometimes i wished tt i could haf a steady enjoyable well-paying job.. and spend the rest of my time comfortably wif her and kids.. haii fantasizing again.. but it shld be attainable in the future rite? hopefully.. nanmoamitabha.. amen..