couldnt help but lay on my bed for a long long time b4 i fell asleep last nite.. kept thinking again..

how this particular person changed my life so much.. 4mths or so spent wif this somebody out of the 212mths since my existence on this planet.. she was the reason i could look forward to in life.. someone.. i feel.. tt makes life meaningful for mi.. and so i told myself before.. i'd nv wan to lose her.. i'd hafta shower her wif love.. cherish her and nv let her go.. she did worry abt mi not liking her animore.. but in the end.. it happened.. she appeared in my life and gave mi so much hope.. and then disappeared to leave mi in desolation and melancholy.. a mth or so has passed since tt dae.. shld haf become better.. but cant sae i dun feel sad or gotten over her.. wonder how long it'll take.. but sometimes i reallie dun wan to get over her cos i reallie do still love her.. hai.. in such a dilemma..

wanted her to be [happy] [wif mi] in the past.. got to know tt she is doing veri well.. [happier than ever] in her everidae life now [without mi].. dunno whether i shld be glad or not.. sigh.. more often than not tt tot comes to mind.. how come she can be so mirthful after wad has happened while i haf become so woeful?

the forgotten hug.. the unfulfilled promises.. the memories tt nv fail to forge a smile on my face.. but not for long.. everitime i'll be pathetically slammed back to reality.. realising it's no more.. still linger in my mind..