it has been some time since i last blogged.. too bz? probably.. haf been playing online games wif classmates for the past few weeks everi nite.. and oso the recent comic frenzy.. but an entry here doesnt demand much time from mi rite? so i think it's largely due to my reluctance to type.. simply because i din feel like it.. and sadly this does not help to see mi through for the past week.. which was one wif a myriad of emotions incessantly running amok through my head.. tot i haf tided over tt period of helplessness, forlornness, apprehension and trepidation.. but i was wrong.. it seems to be coming back again.. and this time wif a vengeance.. more fearsome.. more intimidating.. bringing much frustration and distress.. why? am i going to crack up again? hopefully not.. i dun wan to revert back to that state of self again.. it's so dreadful.. is it so difficult juz to be happie? as in plain happiness.. not just the pretense on the face.. empty.. void.. yeah hell i m.. but nooooooo i dun wan to be.. grrrrr.. wad comes around goes around..

haiz.. it's reallie disappointing and disheartening to see things not turning out the way u wan it to be.. and most of the times tts the case isnt it? then it'll be all up to the individual on how he or she can deal wif it.. i shldnt be oversensitive rite? and shldnt be getting too emotional.. juz tt sometimes.. juz cant tolerate some pple(however close) even if they din do anithing wrong in an objective view.. but in my own self-centred and selfish subjective view i may take it as they should not be doing tt.. blah blah.. wad the hell is wrong wif mi? bleah.. boo..

hmm perhaps i can start afresh again tmr.. tmr's a brand new dae.. another chance for mi to change.. for the better hopefully.. watched infernal affairs 2 todae.. claz outing to sentosa tmr.. jia you..

aniwae happie bdae ma(23/10) and sumarthin(24/10).. cheers.. shld be hitting the sack soon.. or else i'll overslp again.. hehx.. nite..