yesterdae was my parents' 30th wedding anniversary.. went out for dinner.. they werent happie.. i wasnt either.. why? when we reached home.. each of them went to separate rooms to watch tv and myself back to my own room.. wad is happening? there is this bizarre feeling inside of mi.. ominous premonitions juz like those i had a couple of mths back.. sth back is gonna happen again? i feel so weird.. cant concentrate on studying.. dun think i can do well in the promos.. i shldnt be too keen on the end of exams.. past experience has taught mi tt the more i look forward to sth.. the more likely it'll haf an adverse effect.. then there'll be much disappointment and disillusionment.. frustration and melancholy sets in my helpless self.. sigh.. y this is peculiar inner being materializing again? needa suppress it i guess.. especially at this pt of time.. gotta get my focus right.. argh..

forsaken.incompetent