hmm guez it's tt kind of mood engulfing mi yet again.. i was hoping i could juz not do anithing and let it pass quickly.. tts probably why i havent been posting much since last week.. sadly it din reallie work.. why is it coming back again? wad goes around reallie comes around? gosh this feeling reallie sucks.. i feel so lost.. bizarre questions start to pop up in my mind so fast tt i feel as though i m gonna burst.. wad the hell is happening again? wadz missing? wadz wrong wif mi? argh.. is this juz a process everione has to go through? then i can onli hope i'll tide over this awfully difficult period real soon and without being afflicted wif too much of any sort of distress.. the sudden irritating frustrating disgusting emotion which leaves mi so helpless.. seems like i've been gagged and bound.. then relentlessly abused by something intangible.. not sure wad it is.. but i can confirm tt it is certainly not frenly.. perhaps even malicious.. ahhh it's the shitty crappy moment when problems rush at mi wif full force.. although they can be resolved wif relative ease wif a calm state of mind.. uncontrollably i alwaes consolidate these worries and troubles.. ultimately it's mi myself who suffer.. no solutions and answers to problems are disappointing and annoying.. esp affairs of the heart and mind.. hmm regrets.. plenty of them.. countless and still continuing to count.. sigh.. yesterdae was so fun.. met up wif zhenjie yanwei chihsheng kaiming kwokboon kelvin and kaiyuan.. alwaes haf a great time together.. but everione has their own commitments and established clique of frens alreadi.. but i shld be happie for them rite? yup.. i haf so mani things undone.. unaccomplished.. unfulfilled.. hai.. perhaps i m juz fatigued.. but i slept the most among them yesterdae.. dunno.. off to my aunt's house for dinner.. i hope tmr will be a fine dae..