hmm juz got home and showered.. quite late oreadi.. had a tiff wif my parents.. miscommunication.. bleah.. anw sorry to alan wasted ur time.. tsk and a fren quite zhong se qing you la.. heh.. frenship or relationship should come first? haha think it depends on the status.. whether single or attached.. nvm juz hope i can balance well nix time.. tt is if i can ever get attached.. and prioritise properly.. finding it hard to stay awake(as always) during lessons.. lects especially.. got pretty depressed since last nite till this morning.. still thinking abt tt matter.. then during the double-period phy lect i wrote how i felt on a piece of paper.. felt better after tt.. guez tts the bez alternative when u haf noone to confide in.. but anw tt wasnt a matter to share.. it's juz not rite.. heng nobody saw.. all slpin le.. heh.. had a conversation wif fund during chinese break.. it was quite a nice chat.. and oso helped mi make the decision of not telling him or her.. wan to suffer.. suffer alone ba.. give up.. and continue.. haha but not ez man.. muz find things to do to distract myself from this stupid thingy.. walao.. frustrating.. agonizing.. exasperating.. troubling.. hurting.. someone juz kill mi pls.. i can tide over this problem soon i hope.. spare mi all the pain pls.. grrr the lonely spirit has come to haunt mi n my hp again.. bleah.. and it's my own fault.. heh so who else to blame but myself.. was looking forward to go watch the last samurai wif a fren tmr.. but kena pang seh-ed.. due to unforseen circumstances.. hmm not reallie unforseen but din expect it to b tt fast.. suan le.. so late oreadi dun think can ask anione else.. they'll all be having cca tmr anw.. watch alone? sighhh... phew todae at com lab i managed to take out my previous post i posted at last nite.. was afraid it may b too revealing.. econs test tmr.. wth.. one whole years' topics.. cant possibly finish studying in one nite.. so forget it la.. juz try my bez.. and unknowingly my fingernails haf grown so long i scratched myself and bled.. think i'll go and cut later.. ayeee hopefully i can slp well tonite and be strong.. tsk so confused.. :s

heh.. love is not selfish.. u dun need to be wif or possess the person u love.. love is to wish tt special someone happiness.. even if it is wif another person.. sadx..