hmm.. i wonder y i m alwaes going for gone cases.. pursuing lost causes.. i knoe it's not right but i cant help it.. and then by doing so i haf neglected so much.. it's so frustrating and troubling.. if it's stuff like hw the solution is straightforward.. juz go and do it.. but i seem to alwaes get myself in such situations.. so helpless.. and noone else can understand but myself.. juz like other pp's personal probs.. moreover this particular state i m in now is so awkward.. i knoe it's impossible for mi to do anithing.. except to gif up.. all the bez ya.. as much as i sincerely gif this blessing.. it reallie hurts deep inside.. sigh.. it all started from nothing.. mabbe i shldnt haf done anithing at all.. i'll probably be better off wif nothing.. argh y m i feeling this way.. i shldnt and i cldnt.. ahhh think i'll break down soon.. who will understand? and oso.. while others haf been striving in their various aspects of life.. be it academic or in their love lives.. i haf been stagnating.. or rather deteriorating.. bleah.. i gotta do sth abt it.. action speaks louder than words.. it's now or nv.. dun wan to regret again.. needa set my mind on the right track.. phase off so called 'wrong' or 'bad' stuff and focus on the 'right' and 'good' things.. bah easier said than done.. well will try nevertheless.. gif mi some time.. anw liang jing ru's album reallie rox.. if u dun usually buy original cds or havent bought an original cd b4.. this is one u shld get.. more than worth it.. yup.. ok after dinner i shall refrain myself from playing shattered galaxy and start doing my hw.. if i cant even haf a little will power and self-discipline to do juz tt.. i'd better be off dead.. :x cya.. :(