feeling groggy and lethargic now.. wad a tough phase of life i'm goin through rite now.. probably someone up there is reallie giving mi a test.. dis stuffed nose and cough of mi has been buggin mi since 3 weeks ago.. and no signs of it going away.. everithing tastes so bland now.. i cant smell nor hear pp properly now.. pp cant hear wad i sae too.. thinking of dropping econs to concentrate on de 3 subs.. i'm sure i can do better if i focus on 3.. plus de jobs offered by econs dont seem to appeal to mi.. but there are de consequences.. excelling in 3 subs are no match for those who excel in 4.. tts wad i'm worried abt.. will de unis take mi? will i get de courses i wan? hmm.. and oso econs is a foundation for mani jobs nix time.. bleah.. confused.. dunno wad to do.. grades haf slided right from de beginning of this year.. and it's so hard to crawl up de slippery surface.. struggling to find de form in my studies.. y cant i juz b industrious? haix.. unnecessary burden on my parents.. my family is suffering from severe financial concerns too.. parents not working.. hefty debt owing to de bank.. dad keeps gambling money away.. this house in cashew will be no more pretty soon.. we cant afford it.. and tt means moving further away from seek.. i dun wan! and de boat is shaking quite badly over treacherous waters and de stormy weather.. i'm certain tt it is not at all leaking or beginning to sink.. i juz hope everithing will b alright after this difficult period.. *prays*