sigh.

i dunno.. so i hafta take the blame all de time? u know.. i've said sorry so mani times de meaning de purpose and de sincerity of an apology blurs into a vague and undistinguishable image in my head.. i'm so lost.. again.. wadz my aims my goals in life? treat my parents well.. establish strong bonds wif frens.. do well in my academics.. cherish and love my partner.. physical excellence? humans do haf blind spots.. and miss out on things they cant see.. and tts quite frustrating and troubling at times.. dun reallie haf v close frens.. as in mentally connected.. someone who understands.. not even her.. well i tot she did.. but i'm not quite sure.. i'm feeling sad.. de outbursts of sorrow whenever wadever happens.. de person who can make u happy easily sometimes by doing nothing at all.. can oso make u depressed easily.. long time since i last posted.. wad a pity i din get to track down on wad happened for de past few weeks.. some good some bad.. haiii.. although frens haf told mi i shudnt feel this way.. but i get de feelin of inferiority v easily.. practically in all aspects? perfectionist? no i dun think so.. juz struggling to break free from mediocracy..

sometimes.. love juz aint enuff? i can onli blame myself for not being able to understand u enuff.. i'm juz so.. lousy.

sigh.