it's so weird.. in times of adversity, when all hope seems gone and the world has given up on u.. martin li the cb li aka fei shi aka ma tin gou shi aka prison warden li etc etc will show up unknowingly.. hmm recent examples are actually during my down time at recourse and oso juz not long ago.. guess tts a true fren.. nv giving u the feeling of rejection, alwaes willing to lend a listening ear.. alwaes. others may not seek to understand, and u feel like u wouldnt wanna bug them so they wun haf additional woes to wad they oreadi haf.. wadz worse, some may assume they DO understand and think tt u're hiding sth.. in this scenario, firstly, there's a need to ponder over why the person doesnt wanna reveal to u.. it's simple and it may be juz becos he's not comfortable wif it and u gotta respect tt decision.. oso, i hate the feeling of being maligned, which so oftenly leads to dislike, or sth worse.. real frens go thru both thick and thin tog.. frens tt juz approach u when only they're in need, or shun u when u need help, im not sure if they shud be even labelled as 'frens'.. okae.. i shud b contented.. not from the quantity, but the quality of true fren(s) albeit how few there are.. clashes in mindsets and values and principles and wadsoever haf gotten mi so helpless and frustrated at times.. it's not like u dun wanna care, it's juz tt sometimes it's totally out of control.. however disappointing it is, others haf rights to wad they do or think.. i think i shud juz turn into kira like in deathnote.. haha! aint such a saint myself either.. perhaps not at all but i do adhere to some self-recognized form of code of conduct.. job's ending in 2 weeks' time.. i oughta do some drastic changes in my life and real soon.. else i'll juz gradually morph into a freak of some sort. =[