the feeling is so different, when u smile after crying ur heart out, in the shower =p
re-watching bruce almighty has an all-new meaning to me. it's so uncanny tt the first time watching this show was wif her, but it was juz a comedy. this time, unconsciously, i take into heart all tt is happening to bruce, as there are one too many things that are similar to wadz happening in my own life, albeit not exactly the same. Most of the time, u cant affect the free will of others, even of the person u love the most. When u finally realize that ultimately wad u want is her to be truly happy, even seeing her looking joyous wif another guy means a lot to me. Movies come to happy endings most of the time, my life is a reality. Nevertheless, i shall still lower my head, put my hands together and whisper a silent prayer of my own, juz like bruce did in the movie.

Dear Lord,

I've been so self-centred. I thought i could undo the hurt i've done. Even drastic positive changes do not necessarily mean past mistakes could be made up for. It has been some time and I have realized what I really want. I pray for her to be happy, no matter what that means. I want her to find someone who will treat her with all the love she deserved from me. I want her to meet someone who will see her always as I do now, through Your eyes. Thank You for bringing her into my life. Thank You for letting me realize what love is.

=)