i gotta get this into my head:
SHE DOESNT LOVE ME ANIMORE.
SHE IS IN LOVE WIF ANOTHER GUY.
SO IT DOESNT MATTER EVEN IF I LOVE HER SO MUCH.
SHE HAS GIVEN UP ON ME, GIVEN UP ON US.
SHE IS SEEING ANOTHER GUY.
SHE IS NOT HAPPY WIF ME.
SHE IS HAPPY WIF HIM.
THEY HAF THE SAME VALUES.
WE DONT.
SO, WAKE UP.


im juz SO selfish.
i want her to be happy, but i want to be happy as well.
it seems like the latter is impossible if the former is to be achieved.
it's juz so hard.
u go to sch, and ur heart threatens to break down now and then.
everithing u do, u cant concentrate.
wad the prof is sayin, wad u're doin.
i tot i forced myself to let go, but why is my heart still yearning?
probably it's cos she didnt tell mi in the face, in person.
u knoe it's impossible to get a hug or holding hand from the person u need them from the most, cos it's the exact same person who has given up on u.
it's so difficult to fall asleep nowadaes, when i do, i wake up everi 2 hrs feeling so exasperated and troubled.
when i wake up everidae in the morning, it's the same feeling of loss.
i juz feel like i haf lost the whole world.
i haf no appetite, im having one meal a day..
everi moment is tortuous to get thru.
can somebody save mi?