sometimes i feel that belief alone is not enuff to see you thru things.
i need the strength and will to carry on..
it's so hard..
to adapt to stressful and competitive academic life.
to try to fit in/make new frens.
to put on a facade of being perfectly okae.
to haf a conflict of interests from the mind and the heart.

the logical, sensible brain keeps telling me stuff that breaks me down.
it never fails to wrench my insides.
the emotional, sensitive heart is equally torturing but in another way.
love keeps reminding me that nothing else matters.
but yet there's no point if the feeling's not mutual.
argh, im being torn apart.

those thoughts and memories are just so vivid and just wun go away.
and the dreams at nite simply just gif me tt crushed and lost feeling every time i wake up.

i still haf belief tho... hopefully new-found strength can allow me to trudge on this path which i really cant see wadz ahead..