a day of the month which used to be memorable.. perhaps it still is, juz for the wrong reasons now.. wad u hold so close to ur heart may mean nth, nothing at all to another.. it's so hard to swallow esp when the other is someone so dear to u.. sometimes it's too late to apologize.. sometimes it's too late to change.. sometimes u really cant do anything.. perhaps it was not meant to be.. perhaps im too full of myself.. perhaps i'd still be like b4 if it never happened.. not saying tt i'm like *wham* changed totally and such, but well i think im in the process.. hmm recently, it's not that i've been slpin a lot.. it's more of im taking so long to slp b4 i knoe it.. i could lie on the bed at midnite, and when i decide to visit the loo, it was already 2-3+am.. =/ and those dreams of mine, really leave me feeling so flustered and exasperated when i wake up.. a bad taste deep inside, circumvented by helplessness.. wonder wad i can do to get some peace.. it's 1am now, hopefully i can fall sleep by 2am.. meanwhile, i shall try to bask in memories.. kind of a paradox.. to be sinking in pleasant thoughts but feeling unpleasant.. i dun want to live wif this regret.. yet i cant do anithing abt it.. =/