wow. havent had a day like this in a while.
was really bad.
yest's movie was like the worst movie i've ever watched, and i can probably blame it for the dizzy spells after that and the forgetfulness tt follows after.
no link but, sometimes u needa someone/something to blame on instead of urself all the time.
however, other than the movie, i think everithing else was quite alrite.
but today, i woke up like i havent woken up.
like the zombie in cloverfield which still looks more handsome than ky cb,
i sluggishly juz went thru the morning routines and then zZz in dad's car all the way to sch.
was still in lalaland until i had to reach for my matric card.

!

nothing in my left pocket. siao liao. no wallet. no matric card. no money.
couldnt change for visitor's pass at the guard reception.. then had to haf my identity verified and stuff.. pfft. wad a start to the day..
heng the financial accounting grp quiz was nth much.. it's kinda stressful when the people around u pee-lee-pear-lair while im =| and dun understand wad the korean prof is talking abt.

then i contacted dad to meet him to get my wallet. so he said he can come and pick me up and we'll head over to amoy st food centre for the lor mee.. smartass yours truly said "dun need lar! take mrt 2-3 stops only. meet u there"
and ho ho ho happily walked to city hall mrt and realized..
how do i take the mrt without my wallet?

-_-"

my leadership and teambuilding project is based on helping the elderly wif dementia. looks like im the one needing help..
and so, i walked from sch to city hall, then to raffles place, and then to tanjong pagar, then finally amoy st food centre. it took me 40mins and the relief when i found the place was like sir stamford raffles discovering singapore.

and then, for the afternoon lesson.. i forgot to print out the hardcopy of our due assignment. the prof said 0 marks for late submissions.. stunned! luckily my fren lent laptop for me to print, and not using my cashcard somemore.. pai seh and thanks!

and everi wed during this comms lesson, it never fails to make me think tt firstly, i chose the wrong course, and secondly, tt i chose the wrong school.. woahhhh buay tahan ahhhh.. nothing against the students or sch style.. nor do i think it's bad.. just tt i cant get used to this kinda culture and studying environment.. and my adaptability is really poor..
im not tt ambitious, why did i choose business?
im not tt rah-rah or jia kang tang, why did i choose smu?

it has been 1 term and 3 weeks into the second.. and my regret is juz growing.
i knoe there's no use regretting, but i certainly dun haf control given the way things are turning out to be! already struggling wif matters outside of academics, plus all these it's really so hard to take!

missed all pre-sch activities.. freshmen teambuilding/bondue camp.. missed convocation.. bash.. wadever there is to attend, i didnt make it cos of my injury last year. practically onli one classmate from jc in smu now.. wahhhhh for someone who finds it so hard to break the ice and make new frens, i haf certainly got myself into a difficult situation to start tertiary education, esp in the social sense.

signed up for cambodia cip in the summer and got accepted. and im disappointed the only fren who went for the interview tog didnt.. =( reminds mi of thai cip back in j1.. my resolution of doing cip proportionate to the hols as time permits shall stand! and donating blood every 3 mths.. oh i found this diary i wrote during my j1 thai cip.. T_T

ankle checkup next tue! pls clear me for sports and stuff but exempt me from call-ups.. oh anw im striving to take part in the stan chart marathon end of this year. another goal to work towards! im not tt weak ok!

haircut either coming sunday/next tue.. short thin and DUN NEED TO STYLE. good for lazy people like me. hopefully this time around a good haircut can make me look shuai! (: