gone.. everithing's finished.. the bad omen actuallie turned out to be the inevitable.. i tried to salvage it.. but she said its impossible.. images of the past juz keep popping up at the back of my head uncontrollably.. the happy times we've shared.. even the sad ones.. but we managed to tide over the harder times aniwae.. but now.. sigh.. the promises we've made are of no use.. they are not honoured.. think i may be the saddest person in the whole wide world rite now.. being deprived of the chance of being together wif the person u love.. an almost 5 month old relationship ended juz liddat.. all the sacrifices i have made.. sacrificed more for her than for my parents can u beliff it.. all futile.. juz a few words.. and everithing juz ended like tt.. "it's not ur fault" "i m not not ready for a relationship "i m not a good girlfren" "i m tired" "i still like u" "we can nv be together again" and the umpteen "i'm sorry" arent reallie wad i want to hear from her.. so excited at being able to meet her since a few daes ago which seemed like eons to mi.. and crushed when i left her.. tried so hard not to shed any tears.. but i cant help myself.. they juz kept coming down.. on the way to the bus stop.. on the bus home.. and even now.. i reallie dun knoe how long it'll take for mi to get over this.. haf suffered quite a no. of setbacks.. by far this is the most serious one.. i dunno wad to do now.. i dunno how to face her again.. i dun dare to imagine how she'll be wif another guy.. holding hands.. i feel so helpless now.. i m such a loser.. i skipped dinner.. cant prevent my tears from rolling down.. reallie hope a fatal accident will fall upon mi right at this instant so i wont hafta suffer so much.. it's so cruel to mi.. does anione knoe how i m feeling now? argh.. it's reallie terrible.. i dun even haf the chance to change things.. she cant gif mi a concrete reason for the breakup.. she said time wont help at all.. ouch.. the excruciating pain inside.. nv felt so much for a person b4.. dun think i will ever find a person better than her.. not even close.. even if i do find one.. i'll nv love someone as much as i love her.. and i still do.. sigh.. why must things end this way.. someone pls kill mi rite now.. i cant take it animore..

hmm.. i think i m too unwanted.. she took pity on mi and tried to be wif mi.. now tt she realised tt i m such a loser.. it's onli rite for her to get rid of mi.. ok.. not possessing something is far better than having something and losing it.. and at such a time too.. wif all the other problems.. i still love her.. as though i m trapped in a quicksand.. in too deep i cant get out easily..