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Sunday, September 14, 2003
16:36

juz feel tt i gotta post this.. typed this in my group blog wif some of my closer classmates.. juz came rite from my heart.. kept typing and typing.. hehehz.. buthen read onli if u haf the time la.. it's gonna bore u inside out.. outside in.. inspired by my fren who asked abt a love problem.. buthen this is a bit irrelevant la..

i m veri sure of tt person who i've loved so much and put so much commitment in.. but the cruel and inevitable outcome which i've feared from the dae we were together arrived.. the promises and everithing juz disintegrated and were gone with the wind.. but i haf no regrets now.. although i feel tt it's quite a pity tt 2 persons who loved each other cant be together.. as she's said b4.. "sometimes love juz aint enuff".. 6 mths ago i tot i haf found tt missing rib-bone in my life.. it was all so beautiful.. life was so good u'd feel.. looking forward to everidae.. so keen to see her or simply juz to hear her voice.. sometimes i'd miss her like crazy.. to the extent i dun feel like doing anithing at all.. she gave mi hope.. but sigh.. 2 mths ago.. tt veri person who lit up my life.. broke my heart.. causing a wound which kept bleeding for so long.. and tt time i reallie felt so crushed.. nothing meaningful in life animore.. i was like so fucked up.. cant concentrate on anithing.. dun feel like doing anithing.. i felt i couldnt go on.. suicide seemed to be imminent.. until i tot of the consequences.. her departure from my life seemed like i was shoved off everest.. plunging to my death.. the wound juz wont heal.. when it seemed ok.. sometimes it'll start to bleed real badly again.. until now.. probably it's much better.. but i wouldnt sae it's completely healed.. there'll alwaes be some occasions to cause it to hurt again.. but the scar.. it's alwaes there.. for the rest of my life.. ouch.. perhaps i've sinned too much and this is my retribution.. perhaps i've over-committed.. perhaps i din treat her well enuff.. perhaps i juz dun deserve her.. perhaps.. it's juz my fault.. wadever the reason.. i'll be glad to see her happy now.. if it's mi who brought her misery.. woes.. then probably this separation will be a good decision.. and if she din love mi animore.. then might as well.. she juz din wan to deceive mi ani longer.. din wan to aggravate the pain it'll bring mi if she dragged an unconsequential relationship on and on.. sigh.. she's happie now.. and mi? *shrugz* :\