argh.. traumatized by the tot of being helpless and paralysed in fear when i see the qns during exams.. the fact tt i know i could haf done sth abt it way beforehand doesnt reallie encourage mi much.. kind of losing confidence.. was hoping i could do well so tt i can take a s paper or 2.. so tt i wont be as much as the financial burden as i m now in the future.. buthen.. think i shld not pin too high hopes on it alreadi.. or i'll be even more disappointed.. juz cant reallie believe i practically squandered fridae saturdae and most of sundae on leisure activities while others(most) are frantically rushing to revise stuff right from the start of the year.. soccer/slacking/stoning/having fun seem to take precedence over exams at this point of time.. weird.. last min cramming may work for tests.. but certainly not exams.. as much as i look forward to the end of the exams.. mabbe i would haf wished there's more time for mi to prepare for them.. but tt seems to be the case this time everi year.. gotta kick the bad habit.. hmm probably sth like being late for an appointment.. feeling distressed(not destressed unfortunately), exhausted and it's gettin hard to breathe.. this kind of life is totally crap.. cant fully enjoy myself when i entertain myself wif the tv, com or watsoever.. then after most of the dae passes.. uneasiness and probably a tinge of guilt seeps into my pores eerily.. if i sae tt the past week or so has been unproductive lifeless stupid irksome and monotonous.. it'll be an understatement.. big time..

came here to let my anxious worried apprehensive and vexed inner self out for a while.. the next exam will be commencing after the hour hand travels to its maximum displacement from its current equilibrium position.. wth m i saeing? keep grumbling and whining abt not enuff time and such but yet i m still typing this..

nothing much i can do now.. juz pray hard tt things will turn out fine..
it will.. i hope.. -_-