� sorry! �

apologising doesnt help and i know it.. but i still hafta sae it.. right from the start i've been the bad guy.. and seems like it'll continue this way from now on till we all rem it.. sigh jc life suckx.. hmm losing 2 frens at the same time is reallia huge blow.. although i'm assured tt everithin's fine.. i can tell tt it's not true at all.. u 2 realli make mi hate myself.. so tempted to pon sch todae.. wanted to take green slip after pe but forced myself not to.. basic discipline.. haf i lost more than i've gained? feels like it.. i cant redeem myself.. cant atone for my sins.. if they get angry and do the stuff angry pp will do.. i'll feel damn bad.. but the current scenario isnt much better either.. it's intensifying the guilty conscience.. haf i done wrong? think i did.. but can i control myself? think i could but i din.. so i was in the wrong.. argh.. but it's too late to turn back oreadi.. everithin's become a ding4 ju2.. regret is futile.. i know i shud put myself in ur shoes and understand.. but who will understand mi? it's so hard for mi to make frens.. esp close ones.. but yet so easy to lose them.. i dun wan to.. =( pls forgive mi..

i'm sorry..

haiz. off to bed.. =/