hey hey dear bloggy.. it's been quite a long time since a proper post.. guess i shall write sth todae.. de highlight of de dae was in de evening.. when we visited cente.. it was intriguing as well as enlightening.. de former cuz most of de things he shared i feel de same way too.. and de latter cuz he made mi realize lotsa things.. some probably i haf oreadi grasped in de past but forgotten now.. and some refreshing stuff too.. phew.. glad tt he's totally ok and shud b discharged tmr and back to sch in no time.. there is justice after all.. he tokked abt not spending a lot of money between couples and love is most important.. v true in fact.. esp after some pondering.. frens.. true frens r reallie gems.. and it realli doesnt matter if u're popular or not.. it's not ez managing de phase of life we're going through now.. family cca academics frens relationship etc.. finding it hard to balance.. still learning.. results r slipping v badly.. in stark contrast to my results last year.. everithing juz seems like a slippery uphill to mi now.. but i knoe i can do it.. juz needa grab hold of my self-determination, self-discipline and will-power and not let go so easily.. lotsa schwork to catch up.. of course cant neglect other aspects of life too.. striving to be "good".. up to de individual to define.. often i find my expectations of myself r too high.. this or in academics or aesthetics or physique wadsoever.. and end up being quite disappointed.. and oso recently.. misunderstood and misinterpreted in certain ways when i nv meant it.. sometimes tremendous guilt juz sets in.. live my life well.. upright fun and nice.. minimize de troubles and frustration.. anw on de bus home juz now passed by hcjc again.. an uncontrollable spasm.. and a split-second heart-wrenching sensation hit mi.. a short period of depression after tt.. but i'm so glad i haf found someone who really loves mi and vice versa.. i wanna thank u for being so considerate and loving.. accept my shortcomings graciously and ever so nice.. yesterdae was de 16th consecutive dae we've been meetin up.. but sorry guess todae wasnt appropriate to meet.. need some personal time occasionally.. u too rite? thx for de sandwich u prepared this morning.. was i hungry or was it reallie nice? haha.. luv ya!^^