rainy daes pls go away..

imy.. this is prob a test from God.. yet again bombarding mi wif so mani tots.. searching for anws i may not ever know.. at this point of time.. wif the status quo.. given such a situation.. it's reallie hard to handle.. wadz true happiness and l? do they exist in the first place? hmm went for 68 bbq todae.. was pretty much a dumb throughout the whole trip.. faces i haf not seen since over a year ago.. all seem so distant.. so unfamiliar.. feel as though i was nv part of the class.. ahaha.. shrugz.. some things change.. yet some nv.. suddenly juz feel like standing on a field and let the rain beat down on mi.. WAKE UP!! wad m i thinking?!?! argh.. it's tormenting.. it hurts.. i tot things happen for a reason? so i ought to b stronger rite.. sigh.. im being so irresponsible too.. i needa organise my mental self and get things on the right track.. or else not onli i'll b letting pp around mi down.. i'll b letting myself down the most.. someone slap mi.. splash water on mi.. grrrrrrr.. i can live my life well.. i will.. im so sorry.. forgive and forget.. it's nv ez.. esp to forgive oneself and forget another.. it's juz too late.. cant go back.. y issit all so vivid? hmm.. i think i juz need some slp.. wakakakakakakakakakaka... zZz..

it not onli rains outside.. inside as well..