Wednesday, March 23, 2005
22:02
looks likes i din manage to blog as often as i hoped.. but here i m again.. heh the last post wasnt too long ago like the last last one at least..Unfair Happenings in an Unfair World.. But do not Question or Doubt.. For the Reasons are too Sophisticated for Our Simple Minds to Understand..
juz showered and watched the quarter-final pool masters match between earl strickland and effren reyes.. the former played a straightforward practical game with minor errors.. the latter played with class and sublime shots.. living up to his name as "the magician".. but lady luck wasnt smiling too brightly on effren's side.. yup he lost to earl 8-7 in a game of first to 8.. there is a myriad of things.. happenings.. incidents.. tt i cannot possibly fathom why they occur.. 'Why' is so often asked.. and more often than not.. for intangible and abstract stuff.. answers or solutions to these 'Why' cant be derived.. Why does the person strike Toto and i don't? Why does my son have to meet an accident but not others? Why am i not born good-looking and rich? Why am i so stupid? I used to envy others about wad they haf.. whether it's wad they haf physically.. mentally or even spiritually.. cant say i don't at all but i've learnt better to accept and learn.. everithing happens for a reason rite? in life we hafta make umpteen choices and decisions.. and reap wad we sow.. the fruits of labour or adverse consequences.. these decisions can b considered a test of so mani aspects of oneself.. discipline.. integrity.. To do assignments and revise in time for exams.. To use ur adult-fare ez-link card instead of 55cent tricks.. To sin.. the last one is pretty general.. but shucks.. all of us sin in one way or another.. but ultimately it's all up to the individual.. most importantly keep a clear conscience.. and do wadz right.. altho it may b a lil subjective..
Singapore Zoological Gardens at Mandai
woohoo~! went to the zoo todae.. song bohz.. havent been there in say.. 8 and a half years since the last time i went?! haha.. which was in pri sch when i was doing a tape recording for my 'young zoologist' badge.. loL.. took 171 then changed to 927.. surprisingly it din take us too long to get there.. oh ya first time i tried buying scratch-it cards.. bought $10 worth and tio $10 #-.-"' well reallie looked forward to this "excursion" to the zoo.. so we walked for almoz 6 hours.. wahaha.. looked at all the animals.. listen to all their sounds.. and inhaled all their poo smell.. reallie enjoyed ourselves except for minor glitches.. which were the digi-cam running out of batt when we're onli 1/4 through the zoo and hafta go back to the entrance to buy a disposable one.. some of the exhibits are temporarily closed so we din get to see tigers.. giraffes and some other animals.. and it began to rain at the end but we were planning to go off oreadi anw..
Lot 1 Shoppers' Mall
this time we took 927 all the way back to cck.. walked around then settled dinner at long john's.. quite ho say cos 3 pieces of hot n spicy chicken wif fries and drink onli cost $3.90.. yup then took the lrt send xiaoseek home.. long long long time since i took the lrt.. and then suddenly din feel quite right.. siao one.. how can one suddenly feel down out of nothing?! there's definitely something wrong wif mi.. the moment i looked up when i arrived at the bus stop the bus i was supposed to take zoomed past mi.. =\ tots juz ravaged my mind and my heart began to ache.. funny feeling i havent had for quite some time.. but happened mani times for the past couple of years.. i then decided to embark on an arduous journey back home.. taking bus "11".. it wasnt reallie a problem if i were to walk back to my old house.. but walking back to my present one took mi abt 50mins..
Oh my God
we alwaes hear pp saying this.. free-thinkers.. muslims.. christians.. buddhists.. taoists and so on.. often in times of anguish.. terror.. horror.. despondency.. in short.. in times when we reallie need someone.. or something.. to calm us down.. comfort us.. gif us faith.. strength.. we would say this.. whether it's to God.. Dua Peh Gong.. Tee Gong.. Allah.. or others im not so sure.. past by St.Joseph Church on my way home.. i dun know y but i juz haf yi gu chong dong to go in.. go on my knees.. confide in God by telling Him of all my troubles.. sorrows.. and sins.. but i juz walked off in the end.. last time i was thinking of going to a church alone.. instead of the same scenario everi week.. my frens askin mi to go to church.. cos i feel tt this sort of affinity muz and can b onli found by oneself.. it wud b defeating the purpose if i go there juz for the sake of going.. i used to haf this great impression of christians.. cuz i reallie admire their values and their determination to keep to them.. moreover they seem to lead a carefree life by staying happy while not violating their Ten Commandments.. aiyo but now got who else but christians themselves who dampen my faith? perhaps i've got the benchmark set too high then i get disappointed easily.. aiya dun wanna list out examples.. think of it jiu sian le.. eh but of course most of them are good la.. and i oso caught this show about 'The Three Kings' on discovery channel the other dae.. Jesus wasnt born on 25th Dec!! the show's v interesting leh.. shud haf recorded it down..
frenships.. last a lifetime?
is it necessary good frens last a lifetime? yes i think it is.. but i not necessarily be so.. some frens test ur trust or gif u doubts when this situation can b avoided..some frens cant set priorities rite.. some frens really test ur limits.. sigh.. m i asking too much? =/ i think if all obstacles can b hurdled over in the course of the frenship.. it'll b great.. i value frenships a lot.. sometimes even too much tt i neglect my family and my relationship.. but i'm learning to strike a balance.. and get my priorities proper.. chee hong kiddos.. flirt i dun care.. flirt wif girls who are oreadi attached u shud go chi da bian.. zhong se qing you kiddos.. pang seh guys for girls.. agree liao muz do it mah.. if not in the first place agree for wad.. walao.. if u cant beat them.. join them? argh.. buay tahan.. dun care la.. i miss a lot of my frens.. mani of whom once shared a great frenship wif mi.. whether it's in pri or sec sch or jc.. but i've alwaes regretted the fact tt now i've drifted so far away from all of them.. issit tt i dunno how to maintain or the sustenance of the frenship is not mutual? if it's the latter i'll b really really sad.. T_T
Home Sweet Home.. Hillview Green..
the whole walking journey home reminded mi of a long walk i had last year too.. i was feeling so frustrated and caught up wif tots.. i can juz walk through eerie places being afraid of nothing.. and these are the places which can b spooky at nite cos it's quite ulu and it's v dimly litted wif forested areas all around.. think my mind was too occupied to b bothered abt other stuff.. well so i finally reached my house and i was feeling quite stressed up.. and did wad i havent done in a long time again.. i used to go for a stress-relieving run everitime im feeling like this.. and so i din even bother to change.. i went on the treadmill.. and realized my stamina is like Norwich City in the EPL table.. rock bottom.. ayeee.. heck care.. at least i felt much better.. and here i m typing this blog now.. well i took over an hour to type this blog.. so loh soh.. wa ka ka.. hope my next entry will b a more optimistic one~!
Good Friday.. Good Birthday?
march 25th.. coming fridae.. and no i dun wanna b 19!! there goes my sweet 16 sweet 17 and sweet 18.. getting old~ speaking of old i haf wrinkles dark and big eye bags le.. eck.. havent had anithing planned on fri.. but the tradition at nite is to spend it wif my family for dinner.. hope it wun b too boring.. hope pp actuallie rem? haha.. if not reallie quite depressing.. loL.. cYa`~
