hoho. todae chief clerk.. nt 182/189 squadron one.. ndu chief clerk.. feels much more comfortable calling her tt rather than this one now.. well she gave mi a call and she did help to lift my mood a little.. frm deep below to ground level mabbe.. she was updating a bit of life there and vice versa.. the conversation was a bit depressing for mi tho.. juz made mi miss the place and the pp.. if onli can transfer all the pp there over here.. heh..

well.. tuas naval base isnt exactly the place full-time national servicemen wanna go.. wadever their vocations are.. and especially for stay-out personnel cos the place is so ulu and far deep inside the industrial area.. the onli bus service has a frequency of abt 1 in everi half hour and it's a 50min journey to the nearest civilisation - Boon Lay mrt. and there'll b abt 2-3 duties per week when u hafta reach the earliest to open up the whole building's office and stay late until the last irritating hardworking fella leaves. which can b till 8+ 9+.. and wif the onli mode of transport home.. i think i wun see sunlight the whole dae.. and now the whole admin building is much bigger than last time.. and the stuff to do are more.. namely more sai kang.. make coffee pour water for the CO.. etc etc.. and the registry does not haf ani privacy at all.. pp of all ranks juz walk in and out.. plenty of ssgs and msgs.. even more ltas, cpts, majs and ltcs walking arnd..

and the thing of working in a no.3 uniform is realli degrading for mi.. juz does nothing but highlights the fact tt im the lowest life-form (Private) of the lowest life-forms (Clerks). zZz. my colleagues.. first person whom i realli knoe and showed mi arnd etc.. he was frm ndu oso.. out of course and had trouble wif quite a few authorities back there.. but seemingly quite a popular figure here but looks v dangerous.. close to chief clerk.. was told to watch out for him.. as well as this guy whom they all kind of outcast.. cos he's v selfish and no conscience i was told.. sheesh.. and the last one is a not-so-thin guy who's quite lazy.. reali knoes how to siam work and go some place and twang.. actualli they all realli knoe how to twang.. can MIA for damn long and funny thing is they dun get scolded.. and im the onli non-smoker there.. zZz.. feel damn out of place there.. trying to settle down but it's not getting ani better at all..

hmm now i realize having nice pp and a bad environment is better than a nice environment wif not-so-nice pp.. and oso newbs alwaes get bullied/exploited/mocked? or issit juz mi? go everiwhere oso gif tt kind of first impression issit.. as tho i wear a headband written "COME BULLY MI"..

pui. i shud juz change my image to "GO AWAY DUN JI SIAO MI".. sometimes realli hao xin mei hao bao one.. haiz.. todae din even haf the appetite to eat lunch.. went to the canteen to buy fruit juice. as long as im there i dun think i will haf a good mood.. the canteen here is so much better.. the food is nice and the fruit juice is nice.. but too bad i juz dun feel like eating..

next medical review: 22nd Jan 2006

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