morning ^^

had an unexpected enlightenment from an unexpected person.. an older cousin whom i dun usually tok to.. well it helped somewhat.. but ultimately it's up to myself for things to happen.. it's how to get myself out of this personal mental blockade and alleviate the fear of the unknown as well as inferiority complex..

and well.. i had to be hit back hard later on to realize that some things that never will be.. will never be.. juz oughta take it and trudge on.. i shud be contented wif wad i haf.. and glad for wad others haf.. perhaps i dun stand a place in others.. but if they're blissful, there is no reason i shud b depressed.. isnt it?

bahhhhh.. enuff of tt wallowing in sentimentality.. it'll juz aggravate and intensify my repulsive aura..

the chinese high sch's 88th anniversary todae! will b meeting fundeh (whose benevolent, charitable, maganimous dad booked a table for us) ticky mdmchee yapan willy boho ky yw and lormee perhaps? back to alma mater for a hoteh dinner... haf alwaes gone back on sundays for soccer but it's different going back this time.. can reminiscise a bit haha..

tot of the dae : think positive. feel positive.

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone sins
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in
Hands shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through


So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold
Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along