why m i being fooled and disappointed time and time again.
wouldnt u even allow me to accomplish this one last thing b4 i totally leave u alone?
i guess im juz dumb not to think of this happening.
why do i bother getting my hopes high for this?
onli to get disappointed so badly again?
why is life making fun of me incessantly and wun even gif mi a break at this time?
do u knoe how it feels to break down over and over again, and ur heart shatters over and over again?
haf u felt like u can never believe in anyone, or anithing ever again?

u planned way ahead of time, spent so much time, so much effort, ur scrimping and saving from allowance, for something tt will never ever materialize.
it's like a last wish tt will not be realized.
here i m, utterly despondent over sth tt hasnt happened, and will never happen.
there they are, enjoying themselves.
a dumb kid crying his heart out while they are having fun.
u knoe wad.
fuck the flowers, fuck the cake, they're already down the chute.
all i can sae is, u're not at fault.
i brought this all upon myself.
i will never seek revenge tho, this may not be so bad cos it teaches mi a lesson.
cos i'll nv be a fucking third party or one to allow one to come in between.
the onli way u'll knoe how tt feels is to be a victim of it urself.
i'll never ever treat anione tt way.
oh wait, m i the third party now?
sorry.

and, I AM the cause of it.
yup, it's all my fault all these happened.
wish u all a happily-ever-after.